Friday, April 28, 2017
Wednesday, April 26, 2017
Tuesday, April 25, 2017
Day 25: Happiness is...
The biggest thing for me is knowing my loved ones are happy.
I tend to be a nuturer by nature. I want to protect. I want to empathize. I want to listen. I want to help. I want to do anything they need. I want the people in my life to be happy. I want all good things for them.
My entire life I've put myself last. Assuming I was the least important person.
Within the last year I've learned that I matter, too. I've made choices to lead to my own happiness. I started taking care of myself - eating healthier 95% of the time, working out and growing muscles, and doing things that help my mental health.
I'm the happiest I think I've ever been. I've now moved to another state. I got a new job that I start soon. I'm living with the man of my dreams. Things are going well. (7.23)
Monday, April 24, 2017
Day 24: A motto to live by...
So it goes...
That's probably the words that come to my mind most often. So much so that it's tattooed on my right foot.
It fits most situations. It encompasses the mildly irritating, the heart-wrenching pain, the clipped attitude, the things you can't do anything about but accept and try to rebuild, and everything in between.
It's a phrase that reminds you even though it hurts like hell now, it'll pass. You can't control everything, but you can get through it.
It holds the deaths of my family, my heart breaks, and my road rage. It cradles all that I am and ever can be.
You can only do so much and sometimes accepting the chaos is the best course of action to move forward and get stronger.
Saturday, April 22, 2017
Thursday, April 20, 2017
Day 20: Would you like to know about the future?
For the most part I'd rather discover my future as it happens. Knowing an outcome doesn't help the road to get there and without the road the outcome can't come true.
I wouldn't be the same person I am today without all that happened to me, and if I knew about some of the things that happened ahead of time I likely would have tried to avoid them. Or I would have lived in fear of the day they happened. Neither of which would have been healthy.
I'm happy with the person my experiences have shaped me into. A lot of blood, sweat, and tears came into forging this identity. This existence is mine and I've claimed a space in the universe I work.
I'm good with the way my life has gone. I'm good with where ever my future will go.
The only thing I'd be curious about is where my work life is going to go. I thought I'd be a teacher my entire life. Right now it's not seeming like that'll ever be in the cards for me. I don't know what I'm going to do for a career. That's all question marks for me.
Wednesday, April 19, 2017
Day 19: Your favorite song to sing?
There's too many songs I rock out to - mostly in my car. I have 90s on 9 blasting when I drive most often.
Red Hot Chili Peppers
New Found Glory
Classic 90s pop need to be belted out:
Humpty Dance - comes on lots
Can't Touch This
I don't want to Wait
Where have all the Cowboys Gone
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
Day 18: How would you like to be described?
I'm not sure how I'd want to be described. I just strive to be a trustworthy and nice person to those that cross my path. I try to do well at all things I do and work my hardest. I strive to be reliable and take care of myself.
I just would like to be a good person.
I don't know, these questions always seem silly to me. I shouldn't be the one describing myself.
Sunday, April 16, 2017
Thursday, April 13, 2017
Day 13: How do you make decisions?
That definitely depends on the decision. Inconsequential decisions like what to eat or where to go is solved by either rock paper scissor or some such random.
Important decisions involve very careful thought, planning, and backup upon backup plans. If it involves more than just me then discussion and talking it all out. Careful consideration and planning is a must for my insane OCD and organizational schematic. I have a problem. That's perhaps why it's taken me 5 years to finally decide to move for real.
Sometimes I let the cosmos guide me. Such as throwing out lots of applications for potential jobs if I'm unsure what I want to do.
Decision making varies.