Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts

Sunday, August 14, 2022

+ Time to Become More Sheikah than Princess +

 It doesn't seem like anyone is going to protect me or save me. Seems as though I'll have to do that myself. 

In an attempt to make myself feel safer I've bought a key entry doorknob, cameras, pepper spray, and a stun gun. Of course, I discovered our house doesn't even want me to protect myself as the door knobs don't come off our doors. The screws are for looks only, there's not hidden latch to detach the knobs from each other, they're just permanently in the doors. I've watched so many youtube videos trying to figure out if there's some kind of secret to my stupid door... But at least the cameras are set up in the rooms I'll be in most often. Hopefully hidden enough they'll never notice. 

The pepper spray and stun gun are always on me now. At least in a pinch I'll be able to use them to hopefully get away. I have a recording app on my phone so any time I'm stuck in a room with him I can record to protect myself. I've also been watching youtube videos on self defense moves to knock out long enough to run. I need to practice them more. 

I  also have a bag in my car ready in case I need to run I'll have some essentials. I also have a safe place to stay and hide where I won't be found, but can go day or night. I shared the threats with safe people. I'm doing everything possible to take care of myself. I just wish I didn't have to. I wish I was believed enough that I was safe. Maybe that's why I never told as a child, maybe I knew even then no one would believe me. Maybe this was my destiny. 

I just hope that I don't lose my life because my Dad can't believe the truth of his own son. 

Tuesday, May 17, 2022

+ I'm Gonna Be a Mrs.! +

 I went to visit my boyfriend for his graduation. I'm going home engaged! 

Sunday, we went to a vineyard for a cute couple time and booked a room there. We thought we were taking a cooking class, but it ended up being more a demo where we ate and drank wine. It was kind of cute. There were a lot of older couples everywhere, but the people we sat next to were nice. We chatted and it was fun. 

After we were supposed to go on a tour of the vineyard, but for whatever reason they weren't offering tours that day (Which was where he had been planning to propose). So we ended up getting wine tastings and the glass to keep at the end. It still ended up being nice. The tasting room was cute and there were people everywhere. The outside was pretty with a little lake. 

After we went to the room which was so cozy and nice. It was named for a famous couple. It was such a fun style of room and even came with a jacuzzi tub and giant shower. We had champagne glasses and chocolate covered strawberries. 

The couple that sat next to us at the cooking class also got a room so they let us look at theirs. The bed and breakfast at the vineyard was such a lovely place. There were stained glass windows and lots of natural light. The people were sweet. 

Fiance and I ended up going to buy legos to build and he settled on a car. We went back to our room to build it and we got about halfway done. I ended up getting impatient and wanted to use the jacuzzi tub as I had gotten bubble bath and a bath bomb, hah. While my bath was winding down, he asked me to marry him. It was cute and sweet. I'm so happy that he's mine. <3 I can't wait to be his. 

Friday, November 4, 2016

+ Inspired! +

Day 4 of 30 Day Writing Challenge: Write about Someone who Inspires You.

One of my biggest inspirations as far as people go would most likely have to be my Nana (She's in the black dress). She's my paternal grandmother. She was a cute Irish spitfire! She married into an Italian family where I gained my surname and my father.

Nana was fierce. She was strong. She had a seriousness about her that commanded attention. She was funny. She was the most generous and loving woman in existence. She was intelligent. She had a temper. She was mediocre at cooking, apparently - her pea soup could hold a spoon straight up.

She was a registered nurse. The thing about nurses are you have to be an incredible person to nurse. It requires intelligence, patience, sacrifice, love, and endless tolerance. I've only had to do some similar things in my jobs that nurses do, but already I can tell I could never do it. I hate bodily functions too much. Also the other things you need to do. I heard many stories from my dad as a child where he'd be sick and she'd just shoot a needle full of penicillin into his butt. Who wants to do that?

I grew up talking to her every night on the phone, she'd visit for weeks at a time, and in the summer she'd let me fly to see her for a month at a time. She taught me to cross-stitch. She taught me a tiny bit on her old piano. She bought me my first Harry Potter book after I talked about how awesome it was when my forth grade teacher read it to us in school (it just hit the US and no one heard about it enough to ban it in schools yet). She gave me my love of shark week and tea. She always watched the same movies with me when I visited her - Fly Away Home, Alaska, Balto, and Grease; none of which I've watched since her death, though I did buy them on DVD.

She gave me my pale skin, medium-brown hair, face, sharp eyes, and resting bitchface. Don't get me wrong, I look like my father, too. And a bit like my mom. I look most like Nana, though. Even at her funeral and wake everyone commented how I looked exactly like her. The best compliment I've gotten.

Some of my favorite stories of her:

She had five children. My dad was the second and eldest male. As you can imagine, they were hellians. One night at dinner they were fighting or being messy, I'm unsure which. Nana had enough and announced, "if you want to act like pigs, you can eat like them!". Then proceeded to flip the table upside down sending spaghetti flying everywhere. The hellians looked at the spaghetti, each other, their mom, and laughed. She flew into more of a rage.

Another story has my dad on his 16th birthday having won a fishing contest that he took home his prize fish. He hadn't cleaned it yet and had it sitting in the fridge. Well, Nana hated fish - A LOT. She told dad he better clean it and find a place for it or she would. Dad took too long because he was a teenager. She picked it up and threw it from their fifth floor apartment in Brooklyn. Out the window the fish sailed and my dad went racing after it only to get to it after it'd been street swept...

The stories paint her as a spitfire and a madwoman, but she calmed down infinitely in her older age. She was always giving people things- gifts, food, time, taking us on vacations. She loved shopping, especially at the BMX. She'd never leave anyone out at Christmas and always have gifts to charities for kids. She made gifts when the family had kids. I cross stitched most of the bibs for the kids with her. A tradition I kept up on. She loved black licorice (good and plenty style), snow caps, juju bees, dots, orange slices, and always had them by her chair. The one she randomly fell asleep in in the middle of the afternoon. She had the best taste in jewelry.

She was always making sure I went to monuments, aquariums, parks, etc. when I visited despite never leaving the car. My aunt and uncle would go with me while she happily waited in the car to make sure I got education and saw things. She took me to see the natural bridge, lurray caverns, Monticello, aquariums, took me to light houses, family beach houses in kitty hawk, the Wright brother monument, etc.

She was one of my most favorite people. I strive to be like her. I do things in hopes that she'd be proud of me. I wanted to graduate college for her, and I did. I was the first grandchild to graduate college and that was my biggest hope! I got confirmed because I knew she'd want it. I do what I can to honor her life and the blood in our veins.