+ Fish Nine +

Fish Nine was nice enough, but not super talkative... then it was another movie date which is always kind of weird in my opinion. I mean it's really hard to get to know someone when you can't really talk on the date. We saw At World's End... which was pretty funny because face it - Shaun of the Dead producers and actors... and British humor. Need I really say more?

Anyway, another time of me having to drive to the town over that's roughly 40 miles away... I then picked him up and drove us to the movie place. Which I don't mind doing... except I hate driving in that town because something bad always happens. Like with Fish Eight I got stopped by a cop for the first time ever... granted after proving I hadn't drank at all I got to go home without a ticket. Just nothing good happens when I drive there... and I'm like super poor right now. I don't have the money to throw away on gas. It's pretty effing annoying and obnoxious.

I have no idea why all these guys are from this specific town, but it seems like none of the guys that live in my town are interested in me. Go figure...and none of them seem to have cars... Score. Not.

After we saw the movie I tried a few times at conversation, but it didn't go real well.Which is super weird because for quite a while he was going overboard trying to talk to me. One night he seriously facebook messaged me three times, facebook called me twice, texted me twice, and called my cell phone once or twice. The most disconcerting I didn't give him my number. He took it from my facebook...which I never put on there...yet somehow it started showing up. Awesome new phone that must've connected it. It should be noted this was the first guy that got my facebook...never again. In case you're wondering.

He also texts me a lot. He's asked me if I like him quite often. I never know how to answer that question. How can I? I don't know you! I don't want to just jump into a relationship with someone I barely know just because I don't want to be alone. The thing is... I'm quite happy alone. I do sometimes crave hanging out with people and everyone's busy. I think mostly I'm just looking for new friends. That, to me, sounds much better than bagging a boyfriend right now. I mean if I become friends with a guy and we actually want to try a relationship later I'd be fine with it... but I don't like the idea of being claimed. I don't like the idea of being in such a rush. I just want to take my time. I'm twenty-three. I have plenty of time for this nonsense.

Also I don't even know how long I'm going to be staying here. If I get a job in another state I'm jumping at that opportunity. I'm not going to stick around here for anyone.

I'm supposed to go out with this guy again. On a dinner date. I hate the idea of a dinner date. I don't like eating in front of strangers. I don't like a lot of food. I'm actually pretty picky as I get older. And it's just weird and awkward.

I don't even know how to assess how the first date went. Apparently it didn't go as bad/awkward as I thought because he wanted to give it another go. Which confused me. I didn't think we'd had such a great time. It was okay. but like I said he didn't say much. He made no attempt at kissing me. It took forever for me to find his stupid apartment because there were five with the same numbers on them... so I was late. We missed whatever movie he'd intended we see. A stupid driver almost T-boned me because he wanted to speed up and not let me cross the street. Then he came back out after I dropped him off to say goodbye again...except I was in the process of using onstar to get directions out of the godforsaken town... so I felt embarrassed and stupid. Just it felt awkward and not good from my perspective. I dread the idea of another evening with him...but I'm too nice to say that.