+ Death's Door +

February Writing Prompt Challenge
Day 1: Your Views on Death and How You Cope.

I'm not sure what my views on death are. Typically it depends on your religious views, which mine have always been complicated at best.

I can recite all the views of death based on the Roman Catholic beliefs because that's the church I grew up in. I went to Catholic Preschool and CCD classes every Wednesday (not to be confused with youth group which is fun and not militant education).

I know that suicide equates to going to Hell, not being baptised means purgatory or if you're a child it means Limbo, it means "life after death" in Heaven or Hell. But who knows what that really means?

I know I've woken up in panic as the question of just that took over. Visceral fear that felt like I was being torn.

However, I don't know what I think. I don't know if you just cease to be after death. I don't know if you get reincarnated. I like that idea best. Especially because I often wonder if the people I'm drawn to in life is just chance or if we're meant to have them in our lives. I like the idea of being destined to have your pack of people throughout varying lives.

I just don't know, though. I have time to figure out what I believe. I figure we should just be the best version of ourselves and humanity we can be and focus on that.

I cope with death in varying ways. I push it down more often than not and try not to focus on the pain until I'm ready. Then I crumble.