Sunday, January 8, 2017

+ Worries +

Day 8: Something You're Currently Worrying About.

Confession time: I don't always do these on the correct days. It's actually the 18th today... shhhh. 

One of my worries has to do with a choice my boyfriend is working on. He's thinking about joining the military again. Which, if that is what he wants, I fully support him because I just want him to be happy. I'm worried that it's going to make it so we won't work out, though.

I'm moving in June. I'm supposed to be closer to him so we can actually get to be together more often. I'm afraid that he's going to go back to the military and be moved even further away from me. I don't want him to go where I can't be with him. 

We're supposed to get a chance to see how we actually work together when we're not stuck in a long distance relationship. He's said that he's in and he wants to be with me, which is a comfort because it's what I want, too. Our future is exactly what I hope for. It's my greatest hope and goal that we work together for the future he talks about with me.

I hate not getting to be with him. It's hard because I love him and I just want to be able to spend time with him. We settle for phone calls and texting, but it's not the same as getting to cuddle up to him at bedtime and kiss him every chance I get and physically be with him. 

I was so happy when he was here! It went so much better than I thought it possibly could. Saying goodbye to him was so difficult. I wanted so badly to not have to let him go. 

I just don't want to move closer only for him to leave right when I get there because he gets stationed somewhere else and be stuck apart again. I want so much for us to be together. 

I also worry a tiny bit he'll get bored of me and break up with me. It's an insecurity my exes have all instilled in me by don't exactly that. However, he's said that he's not going to get tired of me and that's the best thing to hear. 

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