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Day 23: Something You Always Think "What if..." About?

These days I'm not really wondering what if about much. Though, if I have to pick something  I guess it would be about teaching.

I'm at a really weird diverging of woods right now. I'm choosing to pick the one that leads me away from teaching(which has been my life long goal and dream job) and to another state.  I am moving South and Eastward for a banking type job come June. Not only is it leading me away from teaching, it's towards Obi-Wan and towards my boyfriend. My coworkers have been giving me nonsense about how I won't really end up Florida and instead I'm going to end up in the state my boyfriend is in. I can't deny that if I got a good job there I wouldn't stay... because goodness knows I want to be with him. So we'll see.

However, I will wonder what if about teaching my whole life. I love my students, the literature, and my coworkers. However, I don't have the correct ins at work and thus can't get hired as a teacher. The politics behind teaching is enough to make your head spin, but I think if ever I were given the chance I'd be able to navigate it. I think I would be a good teacher, but I don't think I'll ever know because despite "needing teachers" no one ever wants to take a chance on me. Which is fine, maybe it's the cosmos' way of telling me I'm not meant to teach. Maybe I'm meant for something else...