+ Options, Options +

You guys may or may not know this about me, but I'm terrible with making up my mind. The more choices in my life the more awful it becomes. "Zelda, what should we do when we hang out?" Oh god! The decisions! It's terrible for me because I never have a preference. I mean I don't want to hang myself, other than that we're wide open for things to do.

Goodness. Now I have all these options in front of me. I am applying for teaching jobs literally all over the states to all jobs I'm qualified for (that are for legitimate teaching positions - I am also qualified to be a teacher's aide, teacher's assistant, substitute, etc. But why would I move somewhere else to sub when I have schools and teachers here that I'd rather work with versus strange classrooms? Unless it's a teaching job I can't justify moving). So, there's those options.

Also apparently there are some pretty fantastic scholarship options for certain schools in the subject of special education for masters degrees. I'm seriously thinking about deciding to get certified as a special education instructor. Mostly because there needs to be more people that genuinely like helping these kids, and also because I care about all the ones I've met. They're sweet kids and they need more adults on their sides. Plus, it's just really interesting to learn about the types, spectrums, etc.

Then there's a couple of other internships I'm applying for that are actual paid internships, that you then promise 2-4 years to them to teach in their schools. It's specially for urban education and working with the students that can be rougher around the edges or are just first generation high school graduates. That would give me experience, internships, and I believe it also lets you walk away with a masters.

I didn't know so many options were out there. And now I'm kind of sinking and drowning in all of them because I literally have no idea what I want to do. I'm kind of deciding what I want to do entirely based on whoever decides they want me. I'm not sure this is the best approach or not. It might be a little too passive, but without going to each state and harassing the district HR people in person I don't know how to make all these out-of-state applications into more active chase-downs.

Ahhhhh, I'm so not good with choices!