+ The Boys +

I've been lucky in that I have some of the greatest male friends on the planet. They can be there for me through some of my most horrible moments and make me feel not so crazy or broken. They have a way of making me feel together when I seem out of control to myself. However, not all of my boys live very close to me so seeing them is kind of difficult at times. Which totally blows, I might add.

I'm not going to lie and pretend this trip to New York was the best trip ever because we all know it wasn't all that fantastic. It had some pretty intense awful moments. Don't get me wrong some moments were great, but I still have to say that the thing that made me forget about all the insanity and suckiness of the trip were - Cerimon and Adrian. They pretty much made my whole trip back to the East Coast the best ever.

Yep, after a little over a decade we got to hang, and good gravy I didn't think I could love them anymore than I already had. However, now I have managed to find a way to love them even more. They're such adorable sweethearts and so easy to be around. I don't feel completely comfortable with just anyone, but these boys... they had me completely. The moment I saw them I just threw my arms around them and it was just...I don't know how to explain it. You know how there are some people you just know and feel safe around? People that just seeing them all your anxiety and stress in life just melts away? Having them in the same place as me was just like that. All my slight concern and annoyance of the day just immediately disappeared and I was in their arms. I was happy and all I could do was smile - huge.

Especially because these boys, specifically Cerimon, have been through so much with me. We've been pretty damn good friends since we were all about twelve. It was Cerimon I turned to when things sucked with my family throughout my teen years - I don't know how much I've told him over the years, but he probably knows way too much about my family and myself. He's the only person I've spent over half a day on the phone with straight. He's the one I turned to when I was lost and couldn't turn to anyone else because I wasn't supposed to say anything to anyone anyway. However, he's been the keeper of my secrets for more than a decade now. When I was silently pleading for my grandparents to send me the strength that I couldn't muster up within myself when our life was, once more, crumbling because of stupid choices on the part of one specific family member. He gave me the peace of mind I've needed so many times to just move on with my life. It was actually that one horrible moment that brought Cerimon and myself back into each other's lives...and because of that I got to be back in Adrian's life, too. Cerimon didn't have to be awesome and respond to my whiny  ridiculous text of weakness, but I asked him to be there for me as I needed at that moment. And he was there as he's always been. He's amazing.

Adrian, on the other hand, has always been great for some laughs. He was the one who introduced me to

Cerimon. Without him I wouldn't know any of my amazing group from the state. I do so adore them all. Besides Cerimon and Adrian, there's four others that I chat up on occasion. Adrian and I used to chat all the time as well, but after losing contact with the two of them a few years back I hadn't been the greatest at keeping in touch with him. I'm always being told I suck at keeping in touch, which is true. Really I'm only good at keeping in touch with Cerimon, Bianca, and Casanova...

I need to get better at this whole keeping in touch thing. Especially after what a prat I was to Adrian last night. And I do frackin' love him oh so very much! What should be noted is I'm hella good at being obnoxious and teasing the people I care about, but sometimes it's not so obvious it's out of love. Adrian was no exception - teasing him about telling people in my home state that he's a terrorist when he visits just to get him shot at (maybe not the best joke - in a bit bad taste!). At other times it might have seemed like Cerimon and I were double-teaming him too. Oops. He was just so easy to mess with - practically asking for it.

Though I feel like they both got the same amount of torture from me. So whatever. I was making fun of his "hobo beard" as I have dubbed it. There were lots of gay jokes all around, probably too many penis jokes, and too many inappropriate stories - so really it was exactly as it has always been between the three of us. I proved that using a bra as a purse doesn't, in fact, make your boobs look bigger. I'm not even sure how that one came up. There were many moments like that which in normal situations with normal people everyone would be like, "WTF, mate?" but because it was us I didn't bother questioning it.

Though, on an amusing note it was obvious we've all grown up. I mean we weren't always nice to each other with our joking, and sometimes we were all rather immature with our insults. We were kind of annoying and stupid to each other on occasion as kids. Now it was obvious we were all just joking around to have some laughs. At least I caught myself when I was making inappropriate jokes and said I loved them. Haha. They were just so easy to joke around with and laugh with. Amazing smiles and great personalities - such a shame it took so long to get to hang in person.

Surprisingly trustworthy, too. Adrian went out for a smoke break and Cerimon was going to stay inside with me, but I had stepped out to use the restroom. So instead they both just looked confused at my wallet and couldn't decide what to do. They debated taking it outside with them so Adrian could smoke, but then didn't want to make it look like they took my wallet and ran. I don't know why, but I thought that was the cutest thing ever. Such chivalrous gents.

We just talked about well, everything and nothing. Because what else do you do when you're at a random hotel in a town full of awful roads that are labyrinths that have no discernible pattern? Plus, it's not like any of us were all that familiar with where we were. I'm lucky they found our stupid hotel...I'm also lucky they put up with The Family. They wanted to meet my boys - and they were gracious enough to be patient, attentive, and kind to The Family. Not the easiest feat ever.

We discussed whether or not I have an accent. It was decided it was the slightest accent ever, if at all. What can I say? I grew up on the West Coast - I have the "hollywood" style speech. Weird accents were trained out of me. Adrian had a pretty fabulous accent and really I just enjoyed listening to him talk. He had one of those voices that are just soothing and some words just sounded cooler somehow. Cerimon didn't have much of an accent, like me.

We got a lot of chats out of our short amount of time to hang out. Well, it was more than a few hours, but it still felt too short to me.

I'm surprised they don't hate me at some points I got really annoying. Cerimon was falling asleep and I was not having it. Well, mostly because I didn't want to have to say goodbye yet. Then I starting quoting Charlie the Unicorn in his ear... Especially the part where it says, "Silly sleepy head waaaaaake uuuuup!" I threatened to draw on Cerimon's face if he fell asleep which lead to him n I wrestling while he attempted to get my pen. Adrian kept pushing him over and tossing him on the floor to keep Cerimon awake. Jesus, I can't believe Cerimon put up with the two of us!

However, not only did they put up with me they wanted me to stay forever. We joked about me either cross dressing as Cerimon's friend that's living with him to convince his family I was the guy living with them or just flat out kicking him out for me to stay. I was offered a job as a full-time pillow because apparently I'm comfortable to sleep on plus it was an excuse to keep me. They were fabulous.

They didn't really believe in personal bubble space, which I really didn't mind. Cerimon kept putting his head on my shoulder while we were chatting and trying to fall asleep. Adrian sat next to me with his arm touching mine. I was perfectly, cozily sandwiched between the two of them most of the time which was fine by me.

The best thing about Adrian and Cerimon is how they didn't want to leave me as much as I didn't want to leave them. I walked them out to the car and they kept talking and trying to find excuses to not leave yet despite the fact Cerimon was shivering like crazy. They probably hugged me about ten times for minutes at a time. They were probably the best hugs ever because I almost never felt so loved in all my life. They genuinely seemed to be sad to go, and that was very sweet. They gave me the best goodbye ever, and in waiting so long to leave they forwent a lot of sleep despite having to work today. They were even already talking about wanting to see me again soon - Adrian suggesting they really need to road trip to see me, Seriously. Like this Summer. It was touching that they really wanted to be around me.

One of the things that make them so awesome is that I had texts from both of them today telling me to have a  safe flight and tell them when I got home safe. They told me how they kept saying after they left they should turn around and come back. Those kinds of things are what made me feel genuinely cared about and they didn't have to be so damn friendly and amazing. But they are and they're already talking about wanting to see me again, so score.

God, I love these boys.

P.S. The Devils suck ... That's for Adrian, even though he'll never read this. And if he does he's either going to punch me or punch Cerimon if he feels he still can't punch me. Lulz.