+ Changes and my North Star +

I'm sick of changes. You know, for the moment. I just wanted something normal and familiar so I open up blogger and what do I find? BAM. New format. That totally figures. Oh well, enough complaining because it isn't the end of the world. Change can be a good thing. Though, slightly terrifying.

I'm about to be going through changes non-stop. Have I mentioned (probably more than once) that I'm graduating in a little over two weeks? I definitely am. Which means I have to start applying for real jobs, in the real world, puffing out my chest and telling strangers how I am the greatest thing since sliced bread! Which, in case you didn't know, I totally am. I've even white enough to match french or white bread.

Hah, I'm terrible with my bad jokes. But you know what, you totally like it. That's why you're still here reading it.

The main reason I opened up this post is to do a writer workshop because I haven't done one in quite a while because I've been crazy busy with my last semester of college (before I eventually hit classes again for a Masters or Doctorate - because let's face it I'm no where near ready to get my MRS instead..).

This writer's workshop I'm responding to shall be "Where would your North Star lead you?".

Honestly at the moment I'm not entirely sure where my North Star would lead me. Would it govern over my head or my heart? It would lead me somewhere depending on one or the other. I'd like to think that it would lead my heart where it needs to go because it definitely doesn't know what the heck it wants. My heart has never been good at deciding that kind of thing.

I'd like to think that it would lead me to my greatest ambition and push me to do what I don't always have the courage to do. I'm in the process of writing about five books, maybe it would lead me down the path to finish all those books. Maybe push me toward the lovely little hermitage that I dream of in order to write in solitude and bask in the sublime. That's what I want. I want to find a lovely place in nature away from the hustle and bustle of the world and take in all the sublime splendor of the universe the way Walt Whitman, Ansel Adams, Thoreau, and Emerson spoke of.

Maybe it would lead me to the places I've always desired to go. I yearn to travel to Ireland, Italy, Egypt, Japan, England, France, etc. I want to see the museums (Especially the Cairo Museum) and meet new people who are different from the ones I've come across in my life. I love the idea of diversity and people working together for a common goal. It's probably a naive and childish dream - but to have groups of different people together and getting along. It brings hope.

Maybe it would lead me to become an educator overseas like I one day hope to get to do. To get to work on American soil by way of military bases and still get to travel to the places I always dreamed I'd go.

Maybe it will lead me to whoever it is I am meant to be with. Maybe that's someone from my past, maybe someone I've never met. There is a person or two I wouldn't mind for it to be. But most importantly I hope my North Star would lead me to what it is that I need. To help me make my ambitions come true.