Darn you, Nostalgia. I keep thinking about a person I've lost contact with and I miss. I mean, it definitely doesn't help that all these songs that I relate in my mind to him end up popping up in when I give full reign to my music players. So then I'm like, "I should totally text him!". Then I remember, "Oh wait, he never responds to my texts anymore". I'm not sure if that's because a. he doesn't have a phone anymore, b. he doesn't want to talk to me anymore, c. he doesn't get my texts (like cancelled texting plan), or d. he doesn't know it's me. I don't have the guts to call. Yeah, I'm pretty lame, huh?
I don't know where this lack of courage comes from. It's not like I've ever had issues calling anyone, and especially not this guy. For goodness sake...I just, I don't know. I feel like too much time has passed for me to be bothering him anymore. The way I figure it, he isn't interested in finding me either. But I hate that the friendship is gone... He was someone who I could always talk to. He knew a ton about me and so it's weird that I don't have him in my life to chat up anymore.
I even miss his friends. Is that weird to say? I knew some of his friends before I knew him, but the one who introduced us I haven't heard from in forever either. I often wonder how they're both doing and if they've managed to keep each other out of trouble. Because they didn't always think things all the way through. I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm close to graduating and I know that there's a number of people I'll probably never see again...
Thank God for Facebook (except when the people you want to track down don't have them). I think I'm just concentrating too much on the fact I'm getting ready to lose people in my life and that sucks. And I don't want to lose more people than I have to, and I didn't have to lose these people... It just gets frustrating.
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