One moment I was fine texting some pals, deciding to get ready for the day, and the next I was just hit with too many emotions at once.
Part of it was probably the way a certain guy has been behaving. He's been quite yes and no for a while. I really cared about him, and I know he's leaving. He'd made it sound like he wanted to see me, but then blew me off the first chance he got. I just felt stupid because I wanted to see him so I'd get some closure before he leaves. God knows he's been doing nothing but toying with me, but still. I just wanted to maybe feel like it wouldn't be goodbye forever. I guess I'm being stupid and it'd be better to close it off and be done.
Then the idea of a pretty ideal job having lied on their website and closing randomly happened. They may or may not look at my application. Cool.
I was chatting up Cerimon and talking about how the guy I was interested in blowing me off yet again, and he was talking about the girl he'd been seeing and how he didn't get closure and that sucks. He'd mentioned he's been talking to some ladies on a dating site and just a lot of people I know mentioned they've been trying it out. And movies always make it seem like maybe it's not so crazy.
I still think the idea of really finding someone online is ridiculous and stupid, but maybe in my moment of weakness I just needed to feel wanted.
I was chatting up Cerimon and talking about how the guy I was interested in blowing me off yet again, and he was talking about the girl he'd been seeing and how he didn't get closure and that sucks. He'd mentioned he's been talking to some ladies on a dating site and just a lot of people I know mentioned they've been trying it out. And movies always make it seem like maybe it's not so crazy.
I still think the idea of really finding someone online is ridiculous and stupid, but maybe in my moment of weakness I just needed to feel wanted.
I think it was the rejection from this guy and the rejection from the potential job I was interested in, but I joined plenty of fish. I don't know if that's sad or pathetic, but I figure there are worse things in life I could do, right?
I don't know. Maybe I just needed something to feel positive today. I've gotten several guys chatting me up today already. It's been nice to be complimented. I'd kind of forgotten what it's like to have males interested. Who knows? Maybe my fish is out there... -shrug-
In case you're wondering, I chose plenty of fish because I remember the ventures of a blogger I read and his tales of plenty of fish. He'd done it as an experiment in meeting people and testing out online dating. I just thought of that and knew it was free and figured it could be worse, right?
In case you're wondering, I chose plenty of fish because I remember the ventures of a blogger I read and his tales of plenty of fish. He'd done it as an experiment in meeting people and testing out online dating. I just thought of that and knew it was free and figured it could be worse, right?
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